day 21-23 Wed, Thur, Fri

What does one write down about those missing days?

Wed - I had a horrid day. It was truly Murphy's law. IF it could have gone wrong it did. Thurs and Fri I was still bouncing from Wed. I started Therapy on Thurs. Therapy is to help me deal with the reasons why I eat the way I do. Very revealing about myself. It seems that I look to food for comfort for any thing and everything in my life. I did go to the gym on Wed, but haven't been back the rest of the week. I did walk a mile leisurely on Friday at the home school convention. I fell off the wagon for a couple of days. I have not felt good the last couple of days. I have also had a constant headache. One thing learned, my eating and not doing the things that I am commited to doing to make a better me, is a direct link to the way I feel physically, and emotional. If I follow my plan I feel better, if I fall off I become more lethargic, tired and down. The headaches are much worse if I eat crazy and not pay attnetion to what I am doing.

The therapist suggested that since 5-7pm is such a bad time of day for me. I usually have a headache and get really grouchy. I am very short with the kids. He wants me to have my sugars tested. He is thinking early onset diabetes or hypoglycemic. Tuesday I have an appt for my Yearly exam, she will be doing blood work for my thyroid, and we will be discussing my bad time of day. She always checks my sugars as there is a long line of diabetes in my family. I do feel better if I will grab a snack around 4 but often am busy with the kids and don't get to it.

Today I am back to eating what is on my plan and I am feeling better. Still fighting a headache, but it is mild. I know that I can do this and that there will be bumps in the road, some times the bumps are huge and hard to get over.